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For a time he wrote Celia every day and for a while he was engrossed in this, this job really, he thought, his work for now, or part of it; he was deeply involved in what he thought of as the proper way of life. He told the Ghost about her, and the Ghost, who fantasized nightly of high-yella women crossing the yard to find him, was rightly appreciative and admiring.

“I spect you want to marry her and open up a business of your own,” he said.

“I might,” Delvin said. The rosiness of possibility swelled in his heart. He had begun to believe again — sense, suspect, guess — that he was being followed. “Somebody’s tailing me,” he said to the Ghost, nervously. . hopefully.

“Somebody sus-pect you of somethin?” the Ghost said. “Somethin else?”

“No, I don’t feel that way. And besides I hadn’t done anything. Not a thing.”

“People follow me a lot too,” the Ghost said congenially. “I got lots of admirers these days. That’s probably what it is in your case — admirers. These girls, when they get a whiff of your abilities, they come slinking along after yuh.”

“I don’t know if it’s that. Besides, in yo case I heard it was a snort of that old three jacks and a king.”

“I don’t need no potion.” He shook his head. His greased orange hair shone in the low sunlight. “You rob a bank or something? Shoot somebody again?”

Delvin gave him a look. “No. But I did see a man get stabbed.”

“They want you for a witness?”

“It wadn’t like that.”

He told the Ghost about his experience on the freight.

“You think the fall killed him?” the Ghost asked, referring to the living murderer they threw off the train. “Wonder why they didn’t just kill him outright.”

“People don’t want blood on their hands.”

“Even murderer blood? Seems like that would be a badge of honor.”

“They don’t want nothing on their hands.”

Somebody’d tossed a handful of corn dust on a little spill of blood. Delvin’d had a bitter taste in the back of his throat. But after a while it passed. The man who grabbed him at the door and saved him, the little jeff; the man’s hands had shook. Lying makes violence, the professor always said.

The Ghost scratched his freckled cheek. He began a story of dash and devilment, familiar to Delvin before he heard it. Women, shiny-eyed girls, who loved him. “Got one over at the Emporium who wears a gold bracelet I give her.” Out this way he was ready to take on more responsibility, just as soon as Mr. O thought he was ready for it. Actually not when, but right now, if Delvin knew what he meant. He had a sly look under thick orange eyebrows. Something in his face heretofore hidden had worked its way to the surface. Delvin had seen it before with boys their age. Boys who had once been sweet and shy now become rough customers who pushed others around. Mostly it was the cowed ones, the frightened boys who weren’t quick or strong, who stayed gentle, the over-friendly boys who agreed with everything you said. He preferred the older boys — the men really — he’d met on the trains, riders toughened by experience. They scared him but they gave him somebody to follow. And he too pushed and poked and shouted out his readiness to take on the world. He thought of Celia, who had looked at him as a boy who couldn’t be trusted yet. Who didn’t have the power to — to what? He never could be sure. Protect her, he guessed. I can do that, he thought, but then he wasn’t sure, considered himself too rangy-minded, too loose in his ways. He was what she thought he was — a drifter, picking up jobs where he could, a day worker anywhere, in any town — the world’s day worker, he thought — picking peaches, sweeping out the back, raking a yard, filling baskets with sycamore and oak tree leaves. But still he wanted to write things down, in books maybe. He didn’t just have this in mind. He wadn’t no drifter there. He got down hard on the stories he was jotting down these days, applications of effort and detail, some loose-jointed boy walking by a string of wild grapevine trailing up a fence, talking to a brindle cow on the other side about loneliness, taking the cow’s part, taking it back so he could say how he lived over in the town. Story about a man living in a grass house in a ditch, about a little girl singing to herself as the house next door burned down. He didn’t show these stories to anybody, but some time he would.